A year ago on Sunday the lovely Jennie, who writes the brilliant ‘Edspire‘ blog, tragically lost her beautiful 9-month-old baby Matilda Mae to Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS), also known as ‘Cot Death’ .
Bloggers & well-wishers all over the world have been getting together to try to share Jennie’s grief & to celebrate & commemorate the brief life of her beautiful & much-loved little girl, writing ‘Letters to Matilda Mae‘.
I’ve really wanted to add my voice in support, but to be honest I’ve struggled to find the words.
I can’t; my words just aren’t enough, really. How can I even begin to imagine, let alone express, such grief, love & loss? Anything I try to say, & have tried to say, is wholly inadequate.
In May last year Jennie was promoting the work of The Lullaby Trust, a SIDS charity, & many of us wrote posts in its support. I was inspired by the words of Jennie herself in a heart-breakingly beautiful love poem she wrote for her baby girl “Born To Be An Angel”. It brought to mind a beautiful song which I love: Don MacLean’s “Vincent (Starry Starry Night)”, & I was inspired to rewrite some of it.
It expresses how I feel as best as I can; so here again, editted slightly, is her lullaby, my letter to Matilda Mae:
Starry, starry night
Lit up by Matilda Mae
One winter’s night you went away
To join the stars that sparkle in the night
An angel taking flight
Look down on us with chocolate eyes
Lighting up our winter skies
The love you have can brighten any heart
We light our candles, pray
Remembering Matilda Mae
Even ‘though you now have gone away
In our hearts you will remain
Those you left behind they love you still
And they always will
All who knew you loved you
‘Though your days were few
And when you spread your wings to fly
On that starry, starry night
You left a love so radiant and true
Born as an angel, ‘Tilda:
This world was never meant
For one as beautiful as you
Be at peace, Matilda Mae, wherever you are; and know that you are loved & that we will always remember you
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